Prompt for today:
Today let's talk about changes, in one of two ways. Either tell us what you'd most like to see change about diabetes, in any way. This can be management tools, devices, medications, people's perceptions, your own feelings – anything at all that you feel could use changing. OR reflect back on some changes you or your loved one has seen or been through since being diagnosed with diabetes. Were they expected or did they surprise you?
What does that even MEEEEEAN?
Change your lancet? Well I have a trick for that. It’s not really a trick actually just more of a TIP. Every time I open a new bottle of strips I put a lancet in with the strips. I store it all together so it's become just something I do. Grab a bottle, flip the lid, insert lancet, get on with day. I almost always throw it in my bag as I’m running out of the house and hopefully at some point in the next day I will switch out my lancet. So I somehow manage to change it with every 50 tests which could be every 3-5 days. I deserve a fucking medal for that yo.
I wish I could change my own perception on diabetes treatments. I am pretty pro injection now and I wish I had known how awful the insulin pump was going to be for me. I wish I hadn't tried so hard to MAKE it work when it just wasn't working. This left me really angry towards devices. Why the hell did I suffer for 5 years? Why did I think the insulin pump was the answer to all of my problems? How did I not see that it was just making it so much worse? This has left me pretty bitter towards devices and equipment of most kinds. I don’t want to be bitter. I’m trying to understand that it makes life easier for some people. I just can’t get over how terrible it made mine and often wonder how many other people keep plodding along with a less than perfect life-sustaining medical devices that would be better off the old school way too.
I should really work on changing my syringes out maybe once a day. That would be nice. They would probably leave a lot less track marks if they were fresher. Oh and I don't use a sharps container. Totally going to D-Hell and not gonna change that.
I’d like to really change my attitude towards parts of the online diabetes blog world. It used to be such a source of peace for me but now it kind of really bothers me. There’s less and less personal blogs about people sharing their lives WITH diabetes. I know it’s not just me that has seen this shift. I’m kind of hoping this DBLOGweek is going to reconnect some long lost quality bloggers. If I’m being honest, I hardly read any blogs any more. They just seem so impersonal and full of news, gadgetry and conference talk. Blah, BORING.
I’ve changed a lot over the years with this disease. It started shell shocked, the Internet was in it’s infancy. I’d never met another insulin junkie before and it was a good 8 years before I would. I lived my life in relative solitude with diabetes. I then got really involved both with blogging and offline advocacy. I got pumped on Connected in Motion and my dedication to being on Team Type 1 (Now Team NovoNordisk). I was fueled by the absolute camaraderie I got from it all. Then I lost my shit. Anxiety and diabetes burnout pushed me into isolation where I’ve kind of been ever since. I could use a change again but since I'm totally honest (most of the time), I kind of prefer the lurking-in-the-shadows style now.
Lastly? I miss blogging. I get into these routines where I get increasingly uncomfortable with sharing. Sometimes it just feels like I'm putting this shit out there with the goal of views and comments which is not at all the case. It's therapeutic for many reasons. Obviously my own perception but when you write a blog it just really feels self-serving. I know it's not because you guys tell me all the time but I have trouble shaking that.
But on the contrary it's a double-edged sword because I DO enjoy stretching my writing muscle. So that's something I want to change. Write more perhaps.
Any way.. there's a few things that could use a change.
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