I spent almost 3.5 hours commuting to and from work. When I got home, my laptop kept crashing while I was trying to work on freelance so I eventually gave up hope. I threw on some crap clothes, strapped on my cycling shoes and got on the trainer. I had nothing more than the music from my iphone. No Garmin, no other entertainment. I spun for an hour straight of relatively high cadence. Just spun and spun with not a single break. 1 hour, 1 big puddle of sweat.
What hurts these days? My lower back/hip. My collar bone. My ribs and surrounding muscles from the front to the back. All on the left side of my body.
Today? today I got home from work. I peeked around the house to make sure my housechick (chick I live with + house mate + friend) wasn't home. I snuck into my clothes, laced up my shoes and went for A GODDAMN RUN!!
I was afraid if she saw me she might tell me "no". I knew if I listened to my body I wouldn't have gone so I felt like if I was sneaking around maybe I could ignore the tell tale signs that I probably wasn't ready to run yet.
I ran. I ran slow and it was awkward. I ran for only 30 minutes. For someone who never ran less than an hour that felt lame to me. It was hard but not like the first time ever. It was hard because I know what it's supposed to feel like, I haven't forgotten. I remember hours on end of blissful enjoyment. My body seems to have forgotten though. I've been off almost all exercise for a month now never mind off running for most of the summer. I was still spending hours on the bike but the past month I've literally done nothing. I haven't been able to keep up in any other way.
So here I sit wishing I had a full body ice pack. I don't think the run was a good idea but how much longer do I have to wait?
After my trainer ride I realized just how much I relied on exercise to keep me somewhat even keeled mentally. Yeah it reduces anxiety and stress but it's also my hobby. It's something I enjoy and what I do in my spare time. I won't be running any marathons any time soon but I'd like to hope that working through this pain lately is the right thing to do. Now that my bike crash injuries are starting to heal I can get to work on rehabbing my clavicle.
I've mentioned before that I've never ever really had any injuries before right?