This year was mostly shit. FACT!
I rang in 2011 alone and asleep by 11pm. This would turn out to foreshadow much of my year.
It was difficult at best. My health was shit and my depression was immeasurable. I had so very little faith inside me and at times wished I could disappear. My running shoes would turn out to be one of the things that saved my life. I committed to them as I had nothing else to commit to. I signed up for races and running became my life. I could always trust in my shoes to make me feel better even when nothing else could. I could at least get a little endorphin rush.
I tried confiding in friends and family but in the end I pulled away from everything and everybody. Except my mother who took on the name "the rock" since she was constantly my solid ground.
In March I ran the Around the Bay 30km race. One I had never been able to see myself doing and at that time it was the farthest I had ever run. I did it, and when I finished I learned something about myself. My will and determination was going to get me through these difficult times. I also learned that 30km was fucking hard but another 12.2km makes a marathon and I'll be damned if I don't complete that.
I then hit a really REALLY bad patch of life that ate me alive. I wrote this and in return got so many supportive comments and personal emails that most certainly changed things. It took me a very long time and a boatload of friends, family and medications but I slowly dragged my ass back.
I took a road trip to Vermont that eventually changed my outlook as well. I started spending more time with Celine and learned about hills, speed intervals and connecting with another diabetic runner. A few good friends became closer friends through the power of the DOC. Sysy, Reyna, Jeff, Katie, Lindsay, Queenie... just to name a few who had influence on my outcome. I can't forget to mention my close family members who were like glue to me and held me together quite well.
Then in August I went on a life changing canoe trip with Connected in Motion that would connect me to even more amazing people.
The summer of 2011 was spent running for the most part. Running alone. Hours and hours of running alone.
Then as if no time passed at all, I finished my first marathon in October after a difficult night of diabetes malfunction.
The end of 2011 is going to go out with a bang. I have gained more new friends than I can shake a stick at in the past few months and I couldn't be happier. Between Connected in Motion, Team Type 1 and my blog I am feeling very full. I am working at a job I enjoy and for people I like. This year's book is going to be closed and I couldn't be more happy to start a new year. I successfully hit rock bottom in 2011 and thanks to great people, I crawled out of that hole and back into reality. I have a loving family and a great big group of loving friends. I persevered through hardships I thought might kill me and I lost 2 jobs while dealing with those things.
Then I turned the corner and opened my eyes. I discovered goodness in my disease. I discovered confidence again. I found a new Scully. 2012 is going to be a good year. I'll be racing with Team Type 1 while continuing to run as much as I can.
I don't agree with making resolutions. It's not my style. If change is going to happen it's gotta be me, not a list. I have lots of goals and things to look forward to but they are not etched in stone. So I will leave it at that.
Thanks to everybody who stood by me this difficult year, especially my family. If it weren't for you, I likely wouldn't be here. I mean that from every ounce of my being.
Happy New Year, GOOD RIDDANCE 2011!!