an idiot. That was a bad appointment that left me feeling 2" tall. Regardless, the heat ruins my insulin and that's a fact. Y'know how I know? Because it's ME that has to deal with it! Needless to say I have been cooped up all week. I tried going for a run on the treadmill at the gym but I just can't stand the gym in the summer. I often end up in a worse mood instead of feeling fantastic after a run.I haven't been able to organize my thoughts this week. It's been an awful week for me. The heat around here has been really REALLY hot. Temperatures clocking in at 41C (105F). I learned my lesson earlier this summer when it was that hot. I exercised in the heat still and noticed my insulin turning crummy. I brought it up with my Doc (the Endo) and he looked at me strangely like I was talking out of my ass again. Please note, this is the same doc that had no idea what Symlin was and took me for
On top of the heat I have had a decent amount of freelance fall onto my desk at home and have been now chained to my desk at work as well as chained to my desk all evening at home. All work and no play makes me an anxious person, more so than usual. The extra work is welcomed, but it's a double edged sword. I really need the money but I also need my sanity. Yes, that is a picture of my actual mouse I found it online. My addiction to exercise has its reasons and those reasons are justified. Its the only time I am thinking about nothing at all except my body and lungs. It's my way of dealing with the days stresses. It has meditative qualities that leave me filled with endorphins. It settles my mind and makes me feel good about myself by taking care of my body. I really truly need it in my life on a regular basis so when I can't have it, I get anxious and my blood sugars start to act out and rebel like a teenager.